EGG ON MY FACE!!!

I am kicking myself right now, I feel so stupid and ridiculous, I actually thought he asked me out. This is the same dude that has given me the mother of all headaches in this life; I was so elated and was even bragging to my friends about how he asked me out.

Let me rewind a little bit, I got a text message from him yesterday and he went “Do you like stage plays? There’s one showing on Saturday at 5pm” I was like oh yea, he can’t live without me, I knew it, trying to play it cool, I replied “yes I do”. All for dude to call me this morning saying, so how many tickets do you want, I was taken aback but I held my own, told him it was up to him, he said one of his colleagues was selling tickets and since he couldn’t go he wanted to buy tickets for someone else, I guess It’s something that he thought of me but he may also be buying for other people so I guess I should not feel so special. Sent him a text a few minutes later conveniently remembering a friend was coming over and she’s not up for a play.

It always amazes me how we as human beings feel the need to be wanted and needed, it’s usually a letdown when we see that the people we love don’t love us or need us or even want us anymore. When parents realize their children are all grown up and don’t really need them anymore, they realize they have only thought they wanted this, it’s not what they want at all, they want that little baby back. So let me get back to my story, I’m still kinda living it as we can see from the beginning of my post.

So one night he called me up, can’t really remember what led up to this but he asked what I was up to and I said (slutty me) nothing or do you have anything for me? after that all I remember is going over, kissing him and the rest is history. I must confess I am a nosy parker and this gets you into trouble, I had read some of his text messages while he wasn’t looking, from there figured he had been in some kinda relationship, seemed like a serious one, didn’t ask questions though, was living in the moment and it was bliss.

Was out with my girls one evening and I see dudes car as I was about to walk into the cinema, just as I am about to flag the brother down, I see him with “the ex”, I rung his cell he didn’t pick up, this was the dude that told me he would be working all day. Background on the ex; they met first year of uni, dated for about 9 years, proposed to her, she said no (don’t ask me why), they never had sex, she was his first love, you would think armed with all this info, I would respect myself and walk away but hey, I am a dumb girl just like everyone else I have judged.